this town, used to be a pretty place to stay .
two months later
soo, we had a greeat house party, again . but don't worry , didn't drink anything , aahhah . so, it was about 1am, and me and liam were just sitting on the sofa and talking some random shit . and the boys and emma were just dancing and , i don't really know, they did something. weird . hmh . harry came in front of me and took my hand, and pulled me up.
me: what are you doing .. ?
harry: i wanna have sex with you ...
me: what ... ? harry you're drunk ..
harry: lets go to the bedroom .
me: no ..
he was so so so drunk .... i've never seen him ... so drunk ..
harry: lets go
me: no .
he pushed me against the wall , and started to kiss me.
me: harry . i said no .
he didn't listen to me . he started to open my jeans .
me: harry, i said no !
i pushed him away from me . i literally were scared .
harry: babe, what did you just do ?
me: ......
then he punched me . straight to my nose. everyone went quiet . liam jumped off the sofa and came to me .
liam: are you alright ? and harry what the hell is wrong with you ?! you can't hit a woman , and definitely not your girlfriend !
me: i wanna go home ..
liam: well .. i can take you, do you have your keys ?
me: yes ..
harry didn't give a shit. i ran to take my keys and my phone, and then liam ordered a cab to take me to my and emma's hotel .
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i was just sitting there . on my bed. on that bed , where i slept before . it was almost 11am . i didn't sleep at all. i couldn't get it out of my head, what happened . i was in shock . then someone called to me .
me: hello ................................. ?
harry: it's me ..
me: go away .
harry: dear, i'm sorry ..
me: do you have any idea .. what you did to me ..
harry: i don't really remember a thing .. liam just told me ..
me: well that's great that you know .
harry: are you mad to me .. ?
me: i don't know .
harry: are you okay ?
me: i'm physically okay .. but mentally .. no .
harry: is there anything what i could do to you .. ?
me: just leave me alone .
harry: what ... ?
me: i didn't never believe, that i have to say this to you . but .. it's over harry .
harry: what !? no no no it's not over !
me: it is .. the thing is .. i know you were drunk but .. you really hurt me .. a lot ..
harry: you can't leave on phone ...
me: i'm so, so sorry ... harry, i really love you, i really do . you're my life . but .. i just can't do this anymore ..
harry: ........ you can't .
he cried . i heard it .
me: .. i'm sorry ..
harry: .. but what about our baby .. ?
me: i haven't think about it yet ..
then i just couldn't speak with harry anymore . i threw the phone against the wall. it broke up , to a million pieces . i cried. what the hell i just did .
I count, the empty bottles upon the bar,
but I give up I can't count that far,
and the lights in this place,
are too dim to see,
they're kicking me out, it's a quarter past 3,
they tell me, you're all I got,
I just need these dreams to stop,
You can keep the necklace that I gave to you, I'll keep the shitty tattoos.
I can see it from the other side; the grass is in the way thats green, the house is burned to ashes,
I'm no longer in between,
R.I.P, R.I.P, you, and me.
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