Someday, this will be true .

now it's too late to look away .
asdfg. i woke up at 7am . but i just sat there . about two hours . then harry woke up .
harry: morning
me: hey .
harry: should we ..
me: what ?
harry: tell to the boys ?
me: maybe ..
harry: i think i didn't sleep at all ..
me: .........
harry: i'm so ... distressed .
me: why ?
harry: because ... y'know . i love babys . they're just so cute and owh .. it just hurts me so, so much , that when i'm having my own kid .. i can't even keep it ..
me: i know .. i can't even describe this pain inside of me .. feels like, someone is eating me inside ..
harry: mh . and we can't even ... do abortion .
me: why ?
harry: i think it's too late ..
me: what ?
harry: mh ..
me: but , what , how . i'm not gonna .....
harry: darling ... there's nothing else we can do ...
me: oh my god ...
then i started to crying . '' there's nothing else we can do '' - cool story br0, please tell it again , ohps, i don't wanna hear it ehee .
harry hugged me . he was so warm .
harry: i know it's hard ... it's gonna be long and hard year .. but like i said, together we can do anything .
me: but ... i didn't want this .. 
harry: me neither .. but y'know ...
then zayn opended the door .
zayn: hey it breakfast ti ........ oh, i'm sorry ..
harry: ................ we'll come .
zayn: can i ask .. what's going on .. ?
harry: i'll tell you later ...
zayn: okay ..
harry wiped the tears off my face . he took my hand and pulled me off the bed .
harry: are you okay ?
me: i think that i'm not gonna never smile again ..
harry: owh, babe .. of course your gonna smile .. you can't think like that ..
me: ....
harry: lets go eating, maybe you'll cheer up or something ..
then we walked to the kitchen . when we came there, everybody just stared at me .
emma: wait, what's going on .. ?
liam: yeah , is everything alright .. ?
then i just .. started to crying again, and i hugged harry .
me: harry .. i can't ..
harry: hmh ..
harry just hugged me back and stroked me .
louis: what the ....... ?
then louis stand up and came to me .
louis: what's going on ? you know you can tell everything to us ..
harry: yeah.. maybe we should tell to them ..
i just hugged harry even harder.
me: hm ............
niall: harry what's going on ?
i felt that harry was afraid of telling the truth to them , too .
harry: erm ..... this is really hard to tell .. but .. she's pregnant ... 
and at the same second niall spit his food out , zayn fell down from his chair and liam almost suffocated to his water .
niall: whataaaatata
louis: holyshit .............
zayn: WHAT , oh my ass hurts ..
liam: oh-my-god.
emma: I TOLD YOU SO AND YOU DIDN'T BELIEVE ME !
harry: just .. calm down ..
i didn't heat anything what they were talking, nobody didn't rage . everybody were just so ... shocked ..
me: i'm not hungry.
then i just detached from harry's hold and ran to the bedroom . i think i cried my eyes off . i think that harry was crying in the kitchen too .. just after a couple minutes, louis knocked on the door .
louis: can i come in .. ?
me: yeah ..
he closed the door , and came to sit on the bed next to me, and hugged me .
louis: it's gonna be alright .. don't worry, we all support you with this .. this is really hard to harry too .
me: i think i'm going to kill myself ...
louis: what ? no you're not gonna kill yourself . don't you even dare to talk about things like that .
me: but .. this is mine and harry's kid .. and we have to like .. give it away ..
louis: i can think that it's really hard ..
me: it is ...
then he pressed his head against mine and stroked my back .
louis: it's gonna be okay .
then he leaved and i just sat there . alone . and i heard, that harry cried in the kitchen . it made me sad .