Someday, this will be true .

i want you to surrender .
 hawaii .
we arrived to hawaii at 9am, hawaii's time , so it was like 7pm in the UK .   harry had booked some kinda beach house for us o: it wasn't big , it was actually pretty small, but there was just enough room for us .
so how ever, when we got out from the airport, it was sunnyy (8 wooo i love sunshine !
harry: woh it's hot in here .
me: of course because you're here ?
harry: bwah shut up ..
me: there's nothing you can do with the truth .
harry: hmh . please tell me that we're going swimming today ? please please pleaseee
me: i don't know ..
harry: why ?
me: idk , i don't like swimming .
harry: whaoooatt ?
me: mh ..
harry: why ?
me: i don't have enough confidence for that ..
harry: what ? why ? you're weird babe .
me: lol i'm a whale,  don't you remember ?
harry: oh god . you're pathetic , you're far away from whale . how much do you even weigh ? like 60 kilograms ?
me: noup . 53 kilograms ......................
harry: what ? really ?
me: yea ..
harry: do you even eat ?
me: yes ?
harry: actually you're really small .
me: phwe no i'm not .
harry: but you know what, i don't think that you're fat or big or something. you're just ... perfect for me . really .
me: really ?
harry: yes .
then he hugged me . pwwwh his hugs are so warm .
harry: now come on lets go to our hotel .
me: wait ? are we going to walk ?
harry: yes, it's like 2 kilometers from here .
me: ........ 2 kilometers ? argh okay .
so we walked that 2 kilometers, dragging our luggage with us , YEA .
harry: so this is it .
it was you know .. yea it was like normal hotel . it was cool ... and expensive .. i think .
in da hotelroom .
me: wow . this is .. cool . awesome . everything .
harry opened the door for me . i saw this small living room, which was also kitchen .
me: wow .. this is amazing .
harry: hah, i hope you like it !
me: i'm sure i will .
i leaved my luggage to the hallway . that house was fucking amazing . the bedroom was huge, everything was huge and small at the same time ! harry carried our luggage to the bedroom . i went to sit to the bed .
harry: are you tired ?
me: yes ?
harry came to sit next to me .
harry: hmh . darling ?
me: whaaaat ?
harry: do you really weight 53 kg ?
me: yes ... or 54 i'm not sure .
harry: that's a bit worrying .
me: what ?
harry: that you're so thin and light ..
boom .  that was a bit .. harsh . now, let me tell you a secret . i have anorexia . harry doesn't know it . i'm the only one who knows about this . oh and yeah, joey knows . 
me: hmh .
harry: and don't say that you're not thin . someone could think that you're like anorexic ..
me: but i'm not ?
harry: yea yeaa, but someone _could_ think that ..
me: yea .
then he kissed me and jumped off the bed .
harry: lets go swimming !
me: dude, it's like 8pm in the UK . does jet lag say anything to you ?
harry: hah, that's not a problem !
me: for me, it is .
harry: red bull .
me: bed.
harry: no .
me: yes .
he watched me for a while .
harry: if you want to stay in bed ..
then he pushed me down and came on top of me .
me: harryy nooooo
harry: harry yees .
i pushed harry away . i got up from the bed .
harry: wait , what's wrong ?
hmh . after that when harry said that i look like an anorexic ... i don't know . it's hard to lie to someone who you really love . or not lie .. hide things .
me: yes . everything's fine .
i went to the bathroom. i took my phone out of my pocket . i have to call to joey .
joey: hi ?
me: thanks for god you answered . 
joey: is everything alright ?
me: no ..
joey: what's wrong? and why are you whispering ?
me: harry told me just a second ago that someone could think that i have anorexia, when i told him that i weight about 64 kg ....
joey: what !? you haven't told to him ?
me: no ..
joey: but why ?
me: if i tell to him .. he'll ... i don't know . take me to the hospital or something .
joey: well i agree with him . you should really get some help .
me: but i don't need any help ..
joey: but you should really have to look after yourself . i can't even think about that you would die because of anorexia .
me: eh i'm not going to die ... 
joey: if you're not going to get help, i'm afraid that yes, you're going to die ... i mean you're not going to die like today or tomorrow, but ... you know i don't want to talk about this ..
me: ....
joey: you really have to do something with yourself .
me: i know ..
joey: but hey don't screw your honeymoon up with this , okay ?
me: yeah ...
joey: have fun ! byee !
me: bye ..
i put the phone back to my pocket . i looked up to the mirror . shit .  i really looked ... too thin . really . I have to do something . But my head don't understand it . Inside of me... I feel like I'm the biggest person in this whole planet . argh . I went back to the bedroom. Harry was laying on the bed and doing something with his phone, probably text messaging to someone or hanging on twitter .
Me: So what are we doing today ?
Harry: Maybe we'll just chill, if you want we can go to the beach .
Me: hm ..
Harry: Pleaseeee, it's like 600000 degrees hot in here, I have to go swimming . And you're coming with me .
Me: Yeah, of course I will ..
Harry got up from the bed , threw his phone away and came to kiss me . He took my hands and looked me straight to eyes .
Harry: You have beautiful eyes .
Me: Oh well I love your curls .
Harry: And I love your ... okay maybe I'll just shut up , hahah ..
Me: You're just so so filthy ..
Harry: Yes, I know. But now take your bikinis and lets go !
Me: Yeah yeah .
I dug my bikinis from my suitcase . Then we went to the beach .
Harry put the towel to the sand , so we could lay there .
Me: Oh god .. It's hot in here .
Harry: I told you so babeee
We sat down . Harry wrapped his right hand around me .
Harry: I can't even imagine that we're here right now .. I mean .. Like a year ago .. I met you and from that moment my life changed .
Me: Owh ..
Harry kissed me to my cheek.
Harry: Are you okay ?
Me: Yes .. I just thought that was it so smart to leave Char alone like for three weeks ..
Harry: She's not alone, and if you want, we can be here for two ore one week only .
Me: Mh ..
Harry got up .
Harry: Come on, lets go .
He stretched his hand . I hesitated for a while . But then I took Harry's hand, and he pulled me up . We walked along the beach hand in hand .
Harry: The water looks cold .
Me: But it's not .
Harry: You wanna try ?
Me: No ? Haha
Then just like that, Harry took me to his lap .
Harry: Lets goo !
He started to run to the sea.
Me: NO !
I tried to stumble out of Harry's hold, but he was too strong .
Me: Harry ahahasdh I don't want to !
The water already stretched to Harry's hip . And to my ass . Ha . Ha . Ha .
Harry: This is not so cold .
Me: Hm.
Harry: I could throw you away, heh .
Me: If you're going to do that, you're sooo dead .
Harry: Hhah.
He kissed me for a while .
Me: How long are you going to keep me on your lap ?
Harry: Hmmm... Maybe a couple days ?
Me: Lol I'm too heavy .
Harry looked me seriously .
Harry: Girl, you weight 53 kg.
Me: Yea ?
Harry: Your're underweight .
Me: Eh ?
Harry: Heh .
Then he threw me to the sea . Luckily it wasn't so deep . I got up .
Me: Why did you do that ?! Harry wasdf, WHY ?
Harry laughed .
Harry: You're so funny .
I went to kiss Harry.