do you remember at all, people walking hand in hand, can we feel that love again ?
two weeks later
life was ... different . the boys wanted to keep holiday . paul was a bit against that idea , but he had no choices . i spend most of my time with harry . char was always with me. there were days, when harry looked like he's ready to go home, but there were also days when he looked like he's going to die . in those days, i didn't know what to do . i knew he was afraid, what was going to happen . but he hide it . even char noticed that everything wasn't alright . she looked at harry sometimes really wondering . harry's parents and his sister came to see him . the boys came everyday to see harry . and there were one really terrifying day .
i was just talking with harry . it was like 11pm, char wasn't there anymore, liam came to pick her to home .
harry: when i'm okay, i'm gonna take you to paris .
me: really .. ?
harry: yes .
me: you know, you don't really have to ..
harry: but i really want to .
me: hmh ..
harry: oh god it's hot in here ..
me: no it's not ? it's actually kind of cold here ..
harry: oh, i think it's pretty warm in here ..
me: hmm ..
then he just started to shake .
me: are you okay ?
he didn't answer . i ran to the coffee room where all the doctors were, and i told that there were something happening. one of those doctors came with me . he said that situation was weird, so he'll take him to another room so they cam figure out what's going on . i had to wait there in harry's room . i waited like .. 25 minutes. then the doctor came .
the doctor: he's okay . somehow that poison spread to his blood and that's why he had blood poisoning .
me: where is he now ?
the doctor: he's coming soon .
then that doctor leaved me there alone . and soon they brought harry back. he was sleeping or or or something . it was horrible to watch next to him when he's just .. dying .
me: harry .. i know that you can't here me . or maybe you do . you could just.. listen . these last days here .. i've realized something .. i can't live without you . i don't know, but it sounds really .. weird . it's really hard to see you just laying there .. if we were at home , we could watch movies, play with char and just chill .. i really miss those warm and loving hugs .. you can't leave me here alone ..
then i just cried . alone . it was dark .. it was quiet .
harry: don't cry ...
me: harry ..
harry: yes .. ?
me: are you okay ?
harry: well ... now when you're asking ... no i'm not ...
me: it's gonna be alright ..
harry: dear ... if i die ... you have to know ... i love you more than anything ...
me: you're not gonna die .. you can't .. you can't leave me here alone ...
harry: i'm not so sure anymore .. i can't be no superman .. but for you i'll be superhuman .
me: no ..
harry: i love you .
then ... he was in coma .
me: harry ! what .. you can't ...
then the doctors came and they said that it would be better if i would go home . so when i was at one direction's house , ran to the living room . the boys were still awake .
niall: what's going on ?
me: harry ...
louis: what ?
me: he's in coma ..
everyone went pale . louis started to cry .
louis: i can't ..
i went to our bedroom. i sat down on harry's side of the bed . then i just thought, that ... this is the end .. i didn't know what to do . there's no possibilities that harry will wake up . i just need one hug from harry .. just one . i really wished that he would be there right next to me . being cute, cheeky and just harry . but .. he's gone .
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